you are the most compelling person i have ever met. do you want to be friends maybe? do you want to go dancing?

just incase u forgot i still have this other blog where i post mostly animal crossing and anime and puppies: xxxx

combatting depression with booze and food and subsequently lots of puking and sleep. everything makes me feel like a bad person.

i graduated college yesterday and today i’m drunk and whatever 

i graduate in about ten hours (sort of because i still have to do my internship this summer before i can have my diploma) and i’m sitting at home crying and being sick and swollen and cooking and i feel like everyone else is probably out having a good time with friends before everyone leaves and i feel like a big dumb. i hate being sick all the time

feeling sad and small that i’m almost done with school forever and i have so few friends and i won’t have any in beverly at all anymore once justin leaves and i’m just sitting in my living room alone listening to ‘girls just wanna have fun’ instead of hanging out with anyone. a huge chunk of what’s become routine won’t ever happen again. i feel stupid because i went through this a year ago with all the people i should have graduated with graduating, and i’ve been ok and thought i could do this without feeling  like this but i’m sad again because now there’ll be so close to nothing and i feel so lonely already

i watched dan play bioshock infinite for almost 12 hours i am going to bed

I’ve been at Dan’s all day watching him play bioshock infinite this game is very nice to watch ok

i’m feeling very something and it’s not a positive feeling. my stomach really hurts and i keep cussing very loud. being written as a ‘cold’ character by someone you’ve hung out with under ten times and were drunk for half of those and have mostly only talked to over facebook chat does not sit well. i’m not cold. i hate people but i’m probably the nicest misanthrope i know. i need to go for a walk and drink ginger ale or kick things or something.